A Bond By Tragedy

 I have been dealing with so much trauma, and I am having a hard time processing it.  It’s so strange how one can be surrounded by loving, supportive people, and still feel completely alone in the world.   About 2 weeks after Jason died, I had a meltdown that was pretty severe. I was hyperventilating, panicking. Continue reading “A Bond By Tragedy”

Life Is Ticking By

I have been really bad about taking time to just relax, write, and just be me lately. I’m always worried now-a- days. The entire world is worried right now with this crazy pandemic. My sister and I respectfully insisted our mother quit her job. She has stage 4 COPD, and was a cashier at Walmart.Continue reading “Life Is Ticking By”

Packing My Life

I came back to me and Jason’s apartment yesterday about noon. I had good intentions of packing since I have the moving truck on Monday, but I didn’t do much of anything. Yesterday marked exactly one month since the fatal accident that took my honey’s life, and every time I looked around I just sawContinue reading “Packing My Life”

Home

Home is such a nice word and I never realized how lovely it is to feel “at home” until recently. Following my boyfriend’s death, our apartment no longer felt like home. I told a good friend that I felt like, I want to go home, but didn’t know where that was. Several days after IContinue reading “Home”

Is This Fucking Real?

I am still in shock. I know this because I am not really dealing with Jason’s death. I have so much on my plate right now, it’s kind of ridiculous. I had to wait for a bio-hazard cleaning crew to clean my apartment before I could go home, and they had to get three estimatesContinue reading “Is This Fucking Real?”